4:38 pm. Gate B102, Guangzhou Airport, Guangdong, China. Among other people, mostly Chinese, waiting for their flights. Listening to Brian Littrell's “Welcome Home”. Starting today until the next 34 days I will be in China, doing a project in Zhanjiang City, also in Guangdong.

I found myself reminiscing the last few days. I thought about the last two years of my life. As I remember the most important events of those two years, I now know that those two years formed the most important moments of my life to date. A lot transpired over those two years, I experienced a lot of new things, and I experienced coming to the highest and lowest points in my life. I know I am molded a lot by the deep emotional journey that I undertook.

But zooming at present, despite the richness of my experience over those two years, I somehow feel lost. I feel like I haven't gone anywhere. I feel like in some way or another, I was not able to make the most of those two years. Now I ask myself where I am headed. The days are passing by quite quickly. I am growing older, but still not having a clue as to what to precisely do with my life. I am now desperate for guidance.

Of course I am certain that whatever it is that I will do with my life, it will be done for God. Right now I must admit that I also feel lost with my walk in faith. I don't know what to exactly do next. I really don't know…

I am hoping to really find God while I am here in China. Those who can, please help pray for me.

My God and my Creator, my Father, my best friend, my everything…let me find You…